ARGH

this freaking suck big time.

i got a feeling i'm sending myself to hell.

no, wait. i think i am sending myself to hell. sirhan has done a great job in psycho-ing me about somes stuffs. not only that, in fact at some parts, i'm agreeing with him.

it's not because of passion.

neither is it because of commitment.

don't even ask me why i joined NCC. i'll prolly give a stupid answer,"i wanted to lose weight". serious. because i don't know why i joined it. probably because i got duped into the fact that i'll have alot of CCA points that will help me alot in my tertiary education.

and now, wah. i don't know what to say. and i feel as if i've let sirhan down in a way or the other. i don't know why. but in anycase. please, sirhan. don't be bothered about it that is. and yes, don't be angry or something. this is probably not what you're feeling but im just feeling super bad and sad and depressed and everything not nice.

oh man. i'm having such a feeling tt can't be described. i've just let a friend down. omg.

today sucked. and im not bothered about sentry duty anymore. argh

i think im gonna cry myself to sleep.

and probably bawl my eyes out. no one cares la.